Date: 2010-02-07 11:02:38 Created: 2010-02-07 06:02:38
Sometimes you realize that certain things in the past are not nearly as far gone as you may have thought. They may not even be behind you at all.
I started my weekend with a realization like that, and so have spent the rest of it sort of fumbling around, feeling a bit shattered and attempting to regain some lost balance. It is much too early to tell, but I am at least moving in some right-like direction. Time will tell where it leads me.
I have written down quite a few thoughts, and spent quite a bit of time talking to people about it. Anything but thought processing, especially through conversation and interaction with others, seems kind of pale and unimportant.
It is strange to think that there is a normal Monday at work coming tomorrow. I think it will be one of those days where my perspective is shifted in a new way to make everything feel different. I enjoy that kind of shift in itself, so in a way I look forward to that.
But I know I will not bury this in work. It is time to grab this part of the past, process it and finally put it back where it ought to be in the timeline.